Just over three weeks ago I gave birth to my wonderfully beautiful daughter, Holly Dao.
Sadly, this isn't a post on the struggles of having 2 under 2. It isn't a post on my worries of having another baby with GORD. Against all expectations and all the will in the world, Holly Dao was born sleeping at just 25 weeks gestation. I hope one day to be able to share my experience on meeting Holly but I am not quite there yet. Instead I just want you to meet her.
I haven't shared Holly's picture with many people. Its not that she doesn't look well because she is actually the most beautiful little baby I have ever seen but more because of the worry of what people may think of me, posting a picture of my sleeping beauty.
During the last three weeks I have searched, read and cried at other ladies blogs, sharing their experiences on losing their little ones. It helps me to see that I am not alone. But maybe more importantly, its shown me that I shouldn't hide Holly away. Holly isn't my little secret, she was a fully formed little being and to hell with it, I am so bloody proud to be her mummy. Giving birth to her was single-handedly the hardest thing I have ever had to do but I still want to show her to the world. I still birthed my baby and I am still her mummy, even if she can't be here right now.
Like any other baby, Holly deserves her birth announcement. So in light of it almost being October and the month for pregnancy and infant loss awareness, this is me breaking the taboo..
Holly Dao Nguyen
Born on September 7th 2016 at 14.54 and weighing 1lb 7oz
On the 7th September 2016 at 25 weeks gestation, Holly was born, still after a battle with complete heart block.